I stayed up late for the meditation yesterday.

It was at 2:11 am on 11/11/2020

Here in Oregon on the west coast of these Divided States of America.

It was a beautiful experience,

(But not nearly as magical for me as the meditation on April 4^th …

That shared energetic offering was absolutely INCREDIBLE!!!)

After meditating I went to bed, but only slept for a couple of hours.

I had a crappy day …

The worst I’ve had in quite a while.

I was horribly depressed,

Which is 180 degrees from my usual bright, sunny self.

It was definitely an emotional state that was unfamiliar to me.

I found myself thumbing through The Portal book,

And landed on page 621.

It was Cobra’s blog from Friday, July 21, 2017.

Return To Light, it is called.

I was desperate for something,

ANYTHING … PLEASE!!!!

To make myself feel better.

So I grabbed a notebook and a pen and started scribbling the words

Of The Clearing Technique by Charles Berner, per Cobra’s suggestion.

It was so simple.

Almost boring.

But I took the assignment seriously

And gave it my full heartfelt FOCUS.

 

“I am separated from the Source.

I am One with the Source.

I am separated from the Source.

I am One with the Source.”

 

I alternated the sentences for about ten minutes

And filled up three pages…

And

Felt

Nothing.

I tossed my notebook aside in disgust.

My day continued to suck big time, and I went to bed early, exhausted.

The payoff came this morning.

Even before I opened my eyes at the crack of dawn,

I heard whispers in my mind:

“LOVE WINS!”

“Spread the Love!”

Over and over …

A stream of

Light

Beautiful

Words

Filled me up.

But it was way more than the words that got my juices flowing…

It was the FEELINGS

Behind those words,

The VIBRATIONS

That bubbled up

Effortlessly

And

Lovingly

From inside of me.

I felt loved and cherished,

And completely known and understood.

I flew out of bed and

I found myself at my desk with my notebook again.

These words poured out of me.

I feel compelled to share them.

 

I am One with the Source!

I am definitely One with the Source.

I am ONE ONE ONE with Source!

I AM SOURCE!

I am the creator of my story!

I LOVE THIS AMAZING STORY!!!!!

Right HERE,

Right NOW,

In this incredible moment

I feel SO connected to all that is

And SO confident (con = with, fid = God),

And absolutely

IN

LOVE

WITH

LIFE…

I simply want to yell it from the rooftop.

HOLY CRAB!!!!!

I LOVE THIS STORY!!!!!

It is my story.

It is your story.

It is OUR STORY.

Our Universal … (uni = one, verse = story)

Collective Story!

I’ve basically spent most of my life not living,

But instead trying to piece together and understand this experience called Life.

I thought I had it mostly figured out …

Then 2020 rolled around and I learned quickly that I pretty much know nothing.

This year has kicked my ass!

NOW ~~~

IN THIS SUBLIME

PERFECT MOMENT

Everything makes sense to me!

I’m not saying that I know everything…

I understand that Life is an amazing school and it will continue to lovingly teach me for as long as I want to keep playing.

THIS is the biggest piece that I received

And that I resonate with

TODAY:

NOTHING, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, HAS GONE WRONG!!!

The chaos, the pain, the suffering, the seemingly unwanted piles of crap, and negative emotions…

ALL have been incredibly elaborate STAGING for the miracle of what is coming.

It is starting to come into FOCUS for me, and it is staggeringly BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

We are Master Creators.

Every single One of Us.

Although I don’t remember in this moment,

At some point

I agreed to participate in this ‘game’ of Life.

Indeed,

WHO I TRULY AM,

Really wanted to be here

On planet Earth,

In a physical body,

To experience directly,

First-hand,

This leading-edge expansion.

EVOLUTION.

And, BLENDED with me right NOW,

My BIG SELF

Is absolutely enjoying the FUCK out of every single second of this drama,

Regardless of my small perspective

Which often finds this timeline horrible and unbearable.

THIS is exactly where the rubber meets the road.

The division within me.

I have a choice in every situation,

Indeed in every single moment.

I can listen to my small pea brain

Which always has two useless cents to contribute

To whatever is occurring in the movie around me.

OR

OR

OR

I can REMEMBER to reach for,

To FEEL for,

The BOLD,

QUANTUM,

All-knowing

Point-of-view

That Big ME holds unwaveringly!!!

I must DESIRE

And then DECIDE

To OWN that understanding,

That perspective,

Of who

And what

I TRULY AM

In order to fully,

Energetically

Participate

In this EXPERIENCE called LIFE.

YES YES YES!!!!!

That is what I really want!!!!!

Little me has forgotten how eager and excited I was about this experience before I came into this body.

But when I’ve meditated

(I don’t like that word … meditation).

When I’ve quieted my mind

And connected with MYSELF,

MY BIG SELF,

My WHOLE, undivided, self,

I FEEL the exuberance

And the sureness

And the ABSOLUTE JOY

Of this MIRACULOUS experience!!!!!

“WHY would I subject myself to this torture?”

Is something I’ve wondered often

During this crazy year.

The answer from Big Me:

“It only feels like torture,  

When you are not up to speed with the Energy.

Make an effort to connect …

It is easy to do …

And THEN

You will recognize instantly

That those new intense emotions you are experiencing

Only feel

Uncomfortable

When

You

Resist

Them.

RELAX!!!!!

Shake out your limbs

And release,

LET GO

Of the tension in your body.

Take a very deep breath ~~~

Inhale for a slow count to ten if you are able to

And then pause (don’t immediately exhale)

In the stillness for as long as you can.

SLOW DOWN!!

Be brave.

When the emotions come,

And they will,

Do NOT fight them!

Let them in!!

INVITE them in!!!!

Embrace the feelings!!!!!

FEEL

THE

LOVE!!!!!

This is ‘the work’.

Eventually you will reach the ‘place’

(State of BE-ing)

Where

You will find

That these formerly ‘torturous” emotions

Are thrilling and addictive!!!!!

And therein, lies the answer to my question:

“WHY would I subject myself to this torture?”

For FUN!

Period.”

WOWZER!!!!!

This is a LOT to swallow.

These last seven months have been the craziest emotional rollercoaster ride!

I have learned more,

And felt more ALIVE than ever before.

All of this while sitting stationary, in a dark room, in a big bean bag chair!

I am an infinite Being.

I am a vibrational Being.

I am a spiritual Being.

I am not this body,

But the breath,

The Soul

That resides in this delicious body.

So, why am I incredibly excited today?

Because we are on the brink of a new collective story.

I feel it so intensely…the Energy is strong and real and ALIVE!

My decision to follow my gambling heart in all arenas of my life is about to make perfect sense!!!!

What’s unfolding is not about a virus.

Nor is it about the U.S. presidential election.

Those have been distractions --- incredibly successful sideshows designed to intentionally divert attention.

It’s not about money.

And it’s not about time.

We are being offered a gift.

In this moment.  

LET IT IN!!!!!

There is no finish line.

And there will only be as much satisfaction in any future moments as you are able to conjure up in this exact moment.

Your best bet my young padawan is to let go of your need to control the outcome in any way.

Make peace with your life right NOW, exactly as it is.

From MY, BIG point-of-view, your life is in an absolutely PERFECT state-of-becoming in this MOMENT!!!!!

NOTHING NEED CHANGE.

Nothing has gone wrong.

The only conspiracy that matters is that the Universe is working overtime

To wake us up gently

In order to maximize the surprise and delight factor.

It is a brilliant plan,

On a HUGE scale,

And it is unfolding deliberately

With precision,

Beauty

And Grace!

I feel incredibly lucky that I have been able to play a behind-the-scenes role as a small vibrational cog in the heart of this movement.

HOLDING SPACE FOR EXPANSION.

Indeed, every single One of us has played some part in this giant production.

All The World’s A Stage, And We Are Merely Players!  Mr. Shakespeare understood so well this concept!

It makes me happy to think of the stories we will share for decades, perhaps centuries, to come about this incredible segment of ‘time’ leading up to this,

The Grandest Show Mother Earth has ever seen!!!

From my perspective, ‘full disclosure’ is not about waking people up to the EVIL in the world … the swamp. 

In my humble opinion, full disclosure is about helping all of Us to remember our true identities. 

Our Divine connection. 

The amazing and forgotten power withing each of Us. 

To return us to the Light. 

Thank you so much Cobra, and Charles Berner 

For helping me to REMEMBER and fully realize the absolute importance of this knowing.

me + ME = Me, plugged into the full Energy of Myself

I am empowered by letting the Energy FLOW fully

To Me,

Through Me,

And From Me.

“Earth laughs in FLOWers!” ~~~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

WE ARE THE FLOW-ers of the Energy!!!!!

Each of us unique!

Each beautiful!

Each vibrating fully and on the verge of

BLOSSOMING

Into expanded, delicious, BEAUTIFUL, new LIFE! 

I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN SET MYSELF FREE!

I AM THE FREE ENERGY!!!

The free LOVE!!!!!

Love is so much more than a word.

It is a MAGICAL, CREATIVE FORCE OF NATURE!!!!

TOGETHER

WE WEAVE THE INCREDIBLE TAPESTRY OF THIS

BRAVE NEW WORLD!!!!!

All we have to do is reach for it,

And then LET IT IN!!!!!

LOVE WINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!